RANT

OMG
I'm going to have a mental breakdown if I hear the word money one more time!
This is ridiculous! I really can't handle it. I don't know why but I can't.
I can't get my HW done and sell my stuff on ebay and clean my room and pack up things to put in storage and hook up a dvd player and get a job and study for a test and run a club and learn Japanese and spend money on a con and eat and sleep and hang out with people all at the same time and not lose it!
My family owes 10,000 more dollars for college this year then they did last year and now my parents are rushing me to get out and I want another major! I'm like please just let me take out a loan and just don't worry about it I'll pay it bakc when i get a job but they would rather sigh at me and sell the camper they both love and make me feel like crap because i'd like to know I have the degrees i want when I graduate! Hell i might want to go right into grad school! well maybe not I'll probably teach a few years to pay back my loans (if my parents would just let me have them!) and decide if I want my masters in education or in something else. IDK if i even want to teach anymore! I mean of course I want to try it but being a proff wouldn't be a bad gig at all and it would sure as hell pay better! Damn I just need to be engaged to someone making 65000 a year already! My life would suddenly be soooo much easier! Then i'd have a reason for my parents to stop stressing out about money so much. If they are going to stress I don't want them stressing over me. Jeezzzz!!! and it ofends them! I just don't understand....


I may just come back for more here
grrr