Adults

For the first time in my life i can see the benefits of growing up
of being an adult.
When you are being an adult no one yells.
When you are being an adult you can say the things you know you have to say even though you know they will are going to hurt
and you can say them tactfully.
When you are being the adult you can put the past in the past and finally have a real conversation about things that matter with someone you haven't been able to even think about without feeling your stomach give way for almost a year.
When you are being the adult people are proud of you.
People look up to you.
People don't have to tell you that you are horrible because you know when you are and when you aren't.
When you are being an adult you can look past things most of the time
and even when you can't, you can control your temper.
When you are being an adult other people act like adults too.
When you are being an adult it's easier to hold your faith.
When you are being an adult your parents become your best friends
and your best friends while mattering more, effect you less.
When you are being an adult losing and winning isn't strategic anymore
It's just a part of life.
When you are being an adult it doesn't matter that what's is so important right now in your life is sitting 34th chair in the orchestras of the other people involved.
When you are being an adult it's easier to tune out the children all around you.
Even when they are constantly crying from the crib right next to you.

yawn...sigh...

What is it about people that makes them think that not admitting something somehow makes it less true?
What is it about admitting things that somehow makes them worse?
What is it about life that causes it to happen in waves?
One day everything is abhorrently simple. The next everything changes.
I'm fairly certain that more has changed in the last few months of my life then changes in other people lives in years.
and.
I'm exhausted.
I'm too tired to think anymore.
This is my chance to make my life what i want it too be,
but I'm too tired to care.
Fortunately I have some of the best friends in the world.
Unfortunately I also have some of the worst.
I have more to say but i don't have the energy to formulate the words.

This is what was said. The truth. Correct me if i'm wrong.

Me: I've messaged 2 of my friends to find out about Wood. Do you have anything you need to say.
You: I appreciate your letter and what you are offering but because you did things in your own time it's too late. and you aren't going to move because you've decided you like it here.
Me: If you want to stay in this room in Syme you need to understand that you don't do anything. It's my decision and i'll make it in my own time and if i decide to stay and live exactly how i want, I wont feel sorry for you because I offered to have rules.
You: Why can't you do things when other people want to do them?
Me: because i wasn't ready.
You: elaboration on Christina's faults. Christina can't stand to lose...
Me: I know I can't stand to lose but you have the same fault.
You: I can't see any of my faults because i don't think i have them.
Me: Can't you see that you talk with your mouth wide open?
You: No i just talk about everything. It's not wrong.
Me: It is if you are talking about people's decisions behind their back.
You: No it isn't.
Me: Well i've known u a year and i can see your faults even if u can't and i can see that they are sooo much like mine and i completely admit to my faults. Why can't you?
You: because i don't have any. walks out


So that's not exactly what was said in the right order, but there is nothing there that isn't the truth of what happened. So please go talk to everyone about it like you always do and when they want to know what really happened please direct them here. Thank You.