Train of Thought

Things come and go in shifts. I think this is the first time I have been so cognizant of them. So this is the not so great part. Either things will get worse and I'll have to start over or they will get better from here.

Every conversation I have with him means something. It's just like with Jared only it's moving sooo much faster and I know what to expect. Who would have thought that it really is that easy to fall in love.

I am constantly changing. It's funny because all I've ever wanted was friends that I could keep. I can't even keep myself.

I really don't want to have to start over this time. I really like these people. They are good friends and I really have fun when I am with them. And I want to feel completely sure that what makes me happy when I'm with them isn't just him but I'm not too worried because I really don't think it is.

As confused as i feel, I still have a place to be and people to be with most every weekend. I wish i could just be comfortable with it. I need to relax and just enjoy life as it comes.

I don't like living here. It's like living alone and I think it's making me crazy. I was never meant to live alone.

I keep planning for next semester because I just know that it is going to be beyond fantastic, but there is so much that is going to happen before then. I've got a whole summer ahead of me.